18

I had my 18 Birthday last December,
well, remember my post about Birthday Blue,

yep, I'm actually quite nervous , well really nervous to face the reality that I had to face I'm 18 now
I'm on my legal age right now
which mean I already had full responsibility for every decisions I made
there's no such things as hiding behind my parents anymore

Excited?
Of course,
being alone in foreign country made me realize that I should make every decision by myself
I should take care of myself
and sometimes I couldn't do that because of my age

yes, I admit that it limited me a lot when I first came in Germany
I couldn't open my own bank account
and so on and so on

Sucks?
yeah, pretty much sucks,
but then I learned to accept me in my very own way
I mean it always be my decision to come here ,
and I need to face that
so why must I argued?

But on my way here,
I learn that being under 18 was really really fun
I didn't have to pay a thing, well let's make a list!!!

1. Most of the Museums , Palace, Castle etc in Europe offer free admission for people under 18, of course there are discount (mostly 50 percent) for students. But hey, I love free things!! Well, who doesn't?

2. I didn't need to pay 50 Euro for prolonging my visa. Well in this case, please don't ask. I actually also didn't know why this thing could happen? Luck? hmm maybe

well, basically it just that (sorry, it's not a lot, I realized it now :p)
but hey, there's like a ton of fascinating museums in Europe, and you can freely enter them. How cool is that (hmm actually, sounds a little nerdy :p )

but, hey!!

now I'm 18

of course , I couldn't get that free entrance anymore

but yeah,

I'm excited to begin my 18

I'm 18 now

I still don't know what I'm going to do in the future

I still find toy store amazing

I love to spend hours to stare at new toys 

I still do want to play hide and seek

I still love the smell of crayons

I do love laughing and screaming randomly with my friends

Am I getting different?

There still a lot of things I want to do before my 20

I still want to go to every single Amusement Parks in the whole world

I still want to get my diving license

oh and also my driving license :p

 I still want to be a traveller

oh, and I want to climb mountain!!

with no experience and skill,

but hey, let just try

I still love doodling and coloring

I still love balloons

even I have balloons as a decoration in my room

like really?

Am I really 18

am I getting different?

no I think

I still me actually

but I believe,

somehow

 I'm going to be

BETTER ME :)